Starting over.

It's been a while since the last I posted. I just gotta admit that I have been really lazy and yet there's no connection at home till now I am currently have a chance to sit down and start blogging at boyf's place. Unifi! Yay! but laptop is always being a bitch to me. Time to change but no money. Big sucks time. 

Oh well,  day after day same monotonous routines especially in work,Work and work is that all it means. It's all about figure. Something you need to achieve every month in order to have the completion of work but not for own satisfaction but it's for someone else. Someone who decide your paid. From this moment onwards I am really tired and bleary, eyes like lead thinking, can it be any worse if I decided to give up when things seems not right. I’m trying to find something to base my life upon, Something in this strange world that goes on and on. As the days go by and time fades away, What used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay.

Tomorrow comes, and then again, it goes and my ambition to become something more, grows and grows.

BUT it seems around the corner, yet miles away. Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair,

And sometimes it seems like nobody even cares. It’s like no one pays attention to what I feel is best for me and what I think about the way some things should be. I understand now, that I’m pretty much on my own to the way it should be, and I know a lot of what I can do will never be known. All the time, I think about everything I can’t say, what I have to keep in, and by doing this, my thoughts only get more complicated and deepen. Soon I hope to find out who I am, and what I am meant to become, I want to know where I’m going, I don’t need to be reminded of where I came from.

He see's everything and knows everything. Everything in life really does happen for a reason: "God's Reason".

Truly yours, 

Karen